tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54565610145626025572024-02-07T14:47:26.821-08:00Long Lost Storyi write when i feel i want to.F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.comBlogger60125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-74522519389224196032019-04-30T02:47:00.000-07:002019-04-30T02:49:59.741-07:00Of hectic LifeAssalamualaikum. Evening and hoping everyone a blessful life. Im now lying on bed alone while waiting for the family to arrive.<p><br></p><p>Actually we had an event here in Cameron Highlands. The event commenced on Sunday night. So i travelled on my own with CeC, taking simpang pulai route to reach here. Cause im scared to death driving along Tapah route, i decided to take the longer one. Drained but safe. 😩</p><p><br></p><p>Jotting some thoughts here wouldn't be harmful since I've been not blogging for quite some time. Past week really dreadful and i felt like no time to breath properly, to sleep peacefully, to munch food easily,--- its like time is running too fast, like a bullet or to be exaggerated - - the time pass like a flash of light. Im scared of the tasks piling over my head, my hand is just 2, but to do all, im gasping. I cant fully rely on sources i have. I can't trust them to work in this kind of situation as they are quite laze around kind of person. I guess they need training to work and do things quick. Quick and skillful. Not a heedless one of course.</p><p><br></p><p>So i was dead (read: almost knocked out)</p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p>And now, the event had come to an end, enjoying the balance of hours here before returning to hectic schedule and soon ramadhan coming.</p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p>But wait. I just wanna declare my kind of thoughts here on man. They always think their sugary talk can buy girl time to spend with them. 😂😂😂</p><p><br></p><p>I guess don't just randomly assume woman the same. Sometimes when u try to ignite the fire, u are actually playing with danger. It doesn't light the candle but a thunder. So watch out.</p><p><br></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><table cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="tr-caption-container"><tbody><tr><td style="text-align: center;"><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgagdRaJtV2RQl9Vro9zrFa96_8rPK0mtdJvDYRFHNFCteyeVSXZTujIRBPLo0GrqOVqBZKn1IqsQj1D6raNNpJLkJc1OQYOBu_s6nMXk3IF3bMw5iXssAfjEPeEpO93OBCIKL8Sk2pndrf/s1600/IMG_1839.JPG" imageanchor="1"><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgagdRaJtV2RQl9Vro9zrFa96_8rPK0mtdJvDYRFHNFCteyeVSXZTujIRBPLo0GrqOVqBZKn1IqsQj1D6raNNpJLkJc1OQYOBu_s6nMXk3IF3bMw5iXssAfjEPeEpO93OBCIKL8Sk2pndrf/" data-original-width="" data-original-height="" class=" " width="800" height="600" title="" alt=""></a></p></td></tr><tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">The event held (28 - 30 April 2019)</td></tr></tbody></table>F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-238995833962944262019-02-13T19:45:00.001-08:002019-04-30T02:53:19.908-07:00Swiss Garden Beach ResortAssalamualaikum<br>
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its been a year since my last post. i cant denied how 'busy' my schedule was and literally i have time now. :P<br>
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writing has been my passion since forever. but time always chasing using bullet train speed i cant even breath to perform my ritual activities. anyway, lets not to put blame on time, its me who is lack of discipline.<br><br>
few days back, we went for short vacation without my husband. We (my pils and son) stayed in Swiss Garden Resort Residence Kuantan. i booked the apartment via airbnb as i have great experienced staying there before during our company's family day.<br>
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so here few photos from the short vacation we had.<br>
<br><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXDNDv0-3_dXCUNJnEDy3PwOFUioczsznrVkEK3JzEuvUA67kdJlTPMoG1zks42CL7RSccoSj26qHvWh9m4r2qsxV05AMDPQwmi0fY0aOuYfIkQDOFYV0b84xpSGv16KD-Mseug9ZJp26x/s1600/IMG_1839.JPG" imageanchor="1" ><img src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXDNDv0-3_dXCUNJnEDy3PwOFUioczsznrVkEK3JzEuvUA67kdJlTPMoG1zks42CL7RSccoSj26qHvWh9m4r2qsxV05AMDPQwmi0fY0aOuYfIkQDOFYV0b84xpSGv16KD-Mseug9ZJp26x/" data-original-width="" data-original-height=""></a></p><p></p>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-86767888169017918842018-02-01T23:36:00.000-08:002018-06-03T23:35:07.422-07:00All About MiniMe<div style="text-align: justify;">
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i have many days to babysit my baby actually minus the weekend when my husband is working. yeah. he works on Saturday! </div>
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i get the chance myself to be so close with Umar. at this age, his charming personality comes to life when he likes me to piggyback him and whenever he wanna sleeps, he will urge me to follow him and pat him to sleep. no more Abah. previous, that was Abah's chore every single night. now no more. hahaha, cause Abah tak akan layan cakap - cakap dengan dia before sleep. But, he insists me to sing, or spell words, or crack jokes, or anything that can makes him giggle. hahaha. only then he will turn to face me and get so close to me while holding his bottle and fell asleep on his own. sometimes his tiny fingers linger around my eyes or lips or anything that he feel want to touch. sometimes, if he's too tired, it just takes 10 mins for him to doze off. my charming little boy. i wonder how he will be when its time to enter school, or when he sits for UPSR. or when he's in undergraduate studies. oh my, how is it when he has someone he likes and loves and he then has to tell me all his secret things. but, i always picture that he has siblings that so close. i dont have really wonderful siblings relationship so i hope i can plant them from the day Umar has his brother / sister. i believe, every parents has to guide and nature the positive vibes so that the will understand and help each other even the parents are gone. </div>
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To Umar,</div>
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Mama always be by your side even my presence no longer exist in this world. u need to know that every prayer, i always for your betterness, for you to be Hafiz, to be a true leader that lead the Ummah. and there is reason why i named you Umar. Believe in yourself that every hurdle has the solution and you must stay strong even everyone around you pull you down.</div>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-60303601080312211162018-01-14T23:56:00.000-08:002018-01-14T23:56:05.113-08:00Bleed<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Assalamualaikum and good morning everyone.</div>
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Last post is still this month. so it means, im progressing well. dont ya think? </div>
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just to share few things that i ponder.</div>
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does it feel hard for you to stop and think before you ever spit a word? words sometimes take forever to heal if you ever hurt someone feeling.</div>
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i know, sometimes misunderstanding can create deeper and wider trench between two parties. forgiveness make them seal. however, all cracks might join together but there is still small gap between each joint. such as a broken pretty vase will no longer look the same after its being fixed.</div>
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so, mind your tongue. careful. you have built the most beautiful relationship for many years, yet it only takes you a second to split them forever.</div>
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Assalamualaikum.</div>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-25372387313476596382018-01-04T19:48:00.002-08:002018-01-04T19:48:32.424-08:002k18 and You!Assalamualaikum w.b.t.<br />
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Hai people. its 2018. how time flies when i last posted here. anyway, i hope everyone enjoy the opening of 2018 and have lots of ambitious plan for the future ahead. hope the plan goes well.</div>
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meanwhile, as i officially turn 29 when 1st Jan arrived, i feel i am too old to have a celebration. i feel no excitement in celebrating thus i pray to God that He bless me in every good deed i made. if still live in yr chequered past, this is the time now for you to move forward. i am bless of what i have now, of what i achieved (even its too small for everyone to notice, but of course i dont ask for anyone to see the outcome only to believe, and i am far from being proud-- of course), of the supportive family and colleagues. i could not asking for more but always pray for the betterment in me and the rest of the world. life is too short that we dont even know our expiry date.</div>
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since 2018 is getting challenging, i wish and work hard to stand strong and trudge any obstacles nor hindrance. live yr life religiously and inshaAllah He always there to hear and listen from yr every wish and doa.</div>
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Happy New Year to everyone, Happy living yourlife wholeheartedly!</div>
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you who can change the way you wanna be! and stay Positive babe!</div>
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Assalamualaikum w.b.t.</div>
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<b>-H.Farha H.-</b></div>
F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-21794803621323304502017-03-15T01:58:00.002-07:002017-03-15T01:58:33.989-07:00Don't Count On AnyoneAssalamualaikum<br />
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As per today, i have the best ride to work as usual. I dont exactly know how to describe the feeling --- of riding together to work-- i would best relate it to intimacy/the closeness. Surely it is one of surreal thing.<br />
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I arrived late. 3 minutes delayed. The first red mark on my punch card. i care not to this matter. hahahaha.<br />
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Secondly, a news i received from someone higher (in authority) which brings the dullness all of sudden. i hate to say this, or even to think of this more than i should do. I just want to say this, DonT count on other especially when it relates to your work. i discovered myself on why other person can misjudge you because of your innocent wrongdoings. its clear that i can see some of this irresponsible people that do harm "unintentionally".<br />
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<br />F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-50467100288935981882017-03-14T02:22:00.001-07:002017-03-14T02:22:49.497-07:00Panic Cramp?its like hitting me out of nowhere. it seems the word is not real but using it seems to be so cool. that is my personal view. so i just finished emceeing and its kinda thrill at first. after 20 minutes (in general) i started to get the vibe in controlling my voice, my tone, my pace and everything while reading the text. to be honest, and its obvious too that i have no talent to become the emcee. its just that the turn has come and i have to do that. if not now, sooner or later, i still NEED to be the emcee. my partner is good. i mean, he was nervous too. but for the sake of our TURN, i surrender myself with no complain. hahaha.<br />
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coming back to the office, i started to feel curious. i really don't know why i always be in an awkward feeling among the officers. they are the juniors who recently work in the branch and whenever i speak to my assistant, their friends will giggle and it seems to me that there is some story being spread behind me. sometimes, it does disturb my feeling. being my assistant, there are a lot of task to be done quickly, you need to rush, you have no proper meal time, i do so. so if i can do that, you too have to the same. we work in equivalent work load. no more, and no less. i even did myself for tasks which i prefer to do own my own.<br />
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I hope this ends quick. i really have no time to think of it deeper. the sooner it disappear, the better it will be.<br />
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THE END.F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-3776449162639744162016-06-26T17:21:00.003-07:002016-06-26T17:21:48.541-07:00Hello 2016Assalamualaikum<br />
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I think i wrote the wrong title for this post, since its almost end of the year. Hahaha. showing how short minded my mind is. Well, i have been wanting to write since ages... But, the post end up in the draft (as usual).<br />
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Just thinking of my son. He is unwell. Having flu and hard to sleep last night. I only had 4 hours sleep last night and we were so worried that his temperature raised. This morning, he seems better and i hope he can recover sooner.<br />
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Well, he is not really adapt to this metropolitan air (i guess). This dense city is so crowded and polluted and i forgot that i should not bring my kid in the public like we always did when in Tronoh. Here, a bit suffocating. and I feel deranged too (sometimes). Fortuitously, we managed to have a place to rent nearby greenly area.<br />
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Till then, Assalamualaikum..F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-16217562503469507992015-09-01T16:48:00.001-07:002015-09-01T16:48:37.397-07:00Pernah Random?<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: justify;">
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Rasanya lame sangat dah aku tak update entry yang terbaru.
Bile baru nak bagi salam, kemudian terus save as a draft. Gitu la kisah
berulang setiap kali kalau aku baru nak start menaip. Now, being Random, shall
we? Aku slalu sangat hilang identity bila menaip. Hilang langkah dan kemudian
menjadikan aku terus out dr dunia sebenar sebagai watak asal. Kejap nak style
ini, kejap lagi kang nak yang itu plak. Dan yang kali ni??? Aku pun start la
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Tinggalkan soal genuine atau x, tapi kali ni memang edisi
random. Topic random tapi harap-harap entry dalam satu arah, tak la berterabur
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Nak bercakap tentang hal sendiri. Tapi berkaitan la dengan
orang lain. Mungkin? Tentang yang mana harus dijadikan iktibar, atau yang mana
harus menjadi ikutan. Entah, dalam keadaan hidup sekarang, yang mana aku
sekarang seorang isteri dan mak kepada insan lain, banyak perkara yang harus
ada dalam kepala sebelum tutup mata setiap malam. Pikiran tu boleh cakap, dalam
diam pun kau akan rasa macam ade je yang tak selesai buat atau nak kene buat
dengan cepat. Masa macam tak pernah cukup. Satu hari yang cepatnya la berjalan
pergi. Kira-kira pernah dalam satu minggu, aku cuma rasa yang aku hidup dalam 2
hari. Faham tak macam mana? Lagi 5 hari macam hanyut tak sedar ke mana dah.
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Betul la kata orang-orang yang dah rasa garam lebih awal ni.
Ingat kerja suri rumah sepenuh masa mudah? Aku yang baru sebulan ni dah rasa
mcam patah pinggang, sakit belakang. Kerja aku pagi-pagi mengikut urutan sampai
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Buat sarapan > kemas dapur > siapkan Umar lps abah dia
mandikan > susukan Umar > siap-siap untuk makan tgahri + lunch Umar >
masak > makan tghari + suapkan Umar > Zohor > kemas dapur balik + mop
lantai> reheat untuk makan ptg Umar > rehat skjap > kmas depan >
siapkan makan malam > kemas kemas
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Kesimpulannya aku tak pernah rasa rumah akan berkemas
walaupun 20 kali aku buat kerja yang sama. Lantai mmg sekejap sgt akan rasa
berminyak walaupun aku dah mop satu rumah. Dan aku paling tak tahan kalau aku
pijak lantai tapi rasa melekit or berminyak. Memang agak sakit jiwa, tapi aku
paksa jugak mop. Walaupun hari-hari. So Nampak mana tenaga aku hilang tak?
Belum lagi layan Umar main, ajar words, ajar alif ba ta. Umar pun now kuat sgt
susu, his growth spurt hitting back every month, jadi memang sentiasa kena
ready. Kene beli booster untuk aku supaya sentiasa ada super power and jarang
sakit or keletihan. tapi…. At the end of the day, kau rase seronok. Sebab,
sentiasa ade next to your baby, ada rumah untuk masak dan kemas, dan happy
tengok rumah bersih setiap hari. Seriously. Rasa paid off keletihan walaupun
kau yang buat semua. Plus lagi seronok kalau husband compliment every meal yang
kite prepare. Plus plus lagi, kalau anak habiskan makan. Hahahaha. <o:p></o:p></div>
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Itu hal seharian di rumah tentang kerja-kerja atas dunia.
Tapi… untuk yang jadi bekalan kat sana tu jugak boleh jadi satu isu yang
terbelenggu dalam hati, fikiran. Selalu doa supaya diberi sentiasa diberi
hidayah dan petunjuk. Supaya sentiasa di atas jalan yang diredhaiNya. Tapi bila
kadang-kadang dah penat sangat, solat automatic jadi tak fokus. Walaupun
sebelum niat dah ade azam untuk fokus, last last terbabas jugak fikiran ke
tempat lain. Kadang-kadang sampai lupa dah baca tahiyat awal atau tak. Dah teruk
sangat. Memang aku admit, aku banyak kali diuji bila setiap kali aku mulakan
hari dengan azam yang kuat untuk sentiasa solat awal dan khusyuk. Teruk sangat…
bila fikir balik, aku kene jugak stop automatic semua kerja, dan terus ambil
wudhu’ setiap kali lepas azan. Supaya ianya jadi tebiat. Pernah aku dengar
bahawa Sesiapa yang solat di awal waktu, dia sentiasa mempunyai waktu yang
cukup untuk perkara lain. Wallahualam. Tak salah aku, dengar tazkirah jugak ni.
Dan satu lagi, solat menggambarkan peribadi kehidupan seharian kita. Kalau
solat nak cepat dan taka da toma’ninah, ibarat kita sentiasa nak cepat dalam
sesuatu kerja dan kurang kualiti. Kalau kita sering lambat solat, bermaksud
kita sering siapkan kerja lebih waktu yang ditetapkan. Dan kalau kita lupa rakaat,
kita sememangnye tak fokus dalam kerja. Jadi aku selalu ade semua tu. Alangkah
teruk betul menjadi aku. -__-<o:p></o:p></div>
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Berazam supaya Allah dengar doa dan kabulkan permintaan aku.
Aku minta supaya aku sentiasa dalam lindunganNya termasuk la anak dan suami serta
keluarga ku. Supaya Islam tidak tertindas, supaya Melayu sedar diri, supaya
anak aku mendengar kata dan menjadi hafiz seperti yang slalu aku doa semasa
dalam kandungan lagi. Supaya Umar menjadi pejuang Islam yang
tegakkan agamanya. InshaAllah anak ini akan sentiasa menenangkan jiwa kedua ibu
bapanya dan menjadi contoh untuk adik beradik yang lain dan jugak umat lain.
Amin. <o:p></o:p></div>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-59600048329013988592015-04-09T23:07:00.000-07:002015-04-09T23:15:00.440-07:00If only you miss me<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Well I am back. bagus la nya selepas beberape bulan baru nak muncul balik. Muncul balik dgn title mama & student. -___- sunggul cool (tpi emoticon sebaliknye). hahahaha.</div>
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hari ni story pasal ape? dangg. okay, updates on my baby would be one of it. Umar now is reaching 4 months old. So far, i am truly happy with his developments. Die sangat <b>active, cheeky, friendly</b>, and <b>quick learner</b>. I believe he has good potential to be someone one day. Amin. to compare his physical with other same age babies, i think dia ikut abah dia kot. heeeeee. rendang but cute. i dont care as long as my baby is healthy. So far, Umar tak pernah demam or selsema. After jab pun still standing strong like nothing happen. Nowadays, both of us dah start bagi <b>flashcard</b> untuk die belajar. kenal words, alif sampai ya, objects and others. he started to concentrate on things that we show to him. walaupun kadang-kadang die ngantuk, but still attend to what we are trying to show him. <b>Umar likes Upin Ipin</b> too.. hahaha, skrg muka die pun i rasa dh nak sama dengan watak Ipin Upin dgn rambut sikit dkt atas kepala too. He is quite heavy too. Kuat susu. talking bout milk, im trying to increase my supply sbb kdg-kdg i am not well discipline when comes to pumping. tpi many say that u should DL to increase ur supply. so weekend je la i start nk buat balik PP. :)</div>
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My research work? Holla. i am now in RPD mode. btw, tgah nak completekan BAPC which is the annual conference for all PG students. Its a must for all or else xde grade la utk this semester. Thinking of what to expand more in composite structures area. must be hard ya thinking sampai ke sudah, last-last jumpe idea dlm toilet. not sooo cooooooool -__________- (major nsc). Research mode still tgh increase the pace. oh, my dear friend nak start her phd journey this coming july. when i heard the news, i was like >___________< Major yeaaaaaaaaaaaaay! now i have a lady company (instead of my husband) to mingle around. dulu ade nana, and now she is staying in kl. So when adha moves here later, we are like 3 stooges. haahaha. okay, i pray to God that Nana will found her prince charming and later decide to stay in tronoh and build their family and have kids and work here together (bla bla bla).. like tak berkembang betul social aku ni. pusing-pusing the same faces i see. hahahhaa. anyway, its good to be close with yr best buddy sebab ko tak payah nak cerita some part of yr private life from the beginning till tak tau when will end to a now people kan??? i get my fact right kan? hahahhaa. She was my roommate since we started our master sampai la now nak jadi residentmates. gile crazy perempuan ni, sbb she asked me to ask people nearby nak sewa rumah. aku la jadi mangsa. who else la ade kat sini kan???</div>
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i am satisfied with what i have for now, Thanks to the Almighty who ease my journey. susah senang memang ada, but alhamdulillah we manage to face our challenges together. whatever happens, we learn from it. mistakes make us stronger to face other higher difficulties. The more He tests us, the stronger we would be.</div>
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if only you miss me.......... :| (major plain)</div>
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<br />F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-87182064929843085362015-01-18T06:51:00.001-08:002015-01-18T06:51:20.741-08:00Love<p dir="ltr">You know that your love for human never last?</p>
<p dir="ltr">What takes yr love to be eternity?<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">Ask your Creator..He who keep the answer in yr heart.<br><br></p>
<p dir="ltr">One step you take to get closer to your Creator, thousand steeps He take to get near you. ALLAHUAKBAR...<br></p>
F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-4099688888226794512015-01-14T22:00:00.001-08:002015-01-14T23:48:28.548-08:00Higher than u cant expect<p dir="ltr">Assalamualaikum....</p>
<p dir="ltr">I wish i could write it anytime i want, whenever the idea pop out like this time-- at this moment... i believe this is the only medium that i could express my feelings, my thoughts of any issue, critically criticize in any aspects it should be criticize.</p>
<p dir="ltr">I--- should never question a holiness of someone which is superior than me in which their level are beyond my degree of authority. When they are higher in ranking of respect, i expect them to teach me or at least i learn a lot of positive life values to be applied in my future. But then, when comes the unethical values potrayed in their action; i started to question the holiness of the person. In return, the respect u have for that kind of person, will decrease. I am not sure if you can understand this, but let me give you an example. If to debate on religion point of view, u would never argue with an ustaz or ustazah which we know that they are expert in that area and when they slightly done any mistake in the public, people will smack them down like they never ever did any good things before. That is how the reaction of our society towards this kind of issue. You must show a good example to the people around you so that no finger will be pointed towards you on inappropriate actions. </p>
<p dir="ltr">So, here in my case, i am no longer a toddler that can be cheated on any result you made. I am here to judge and i can value myself what kind of people you are. This is general principle ethics that you must always think good of others, never make any speculation towards others unless you witness yourself the wrongdoings they have made. But that is still not enough to drop any conclusion that a person is bad. Its your eyes that may trick you. I always wanted my now and future to be different from what i was raised. To change the negativity mindset into positive ones.. too much influence from badmouth people will destroy our peaceful mind and judgement. So stay away from this people.</p>
<p dir="ltr">In 2015; i wish and work to become a better person than i am before. Become an understanding mother to my dearest son, splendid wife to my lovable husband and a pious slave to my Creator. InshaAllah. My vision is to still perform the sunnah like i did before continously, becoming more humble and work hard to finish my phd studies. <br></p>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-75859880343513297402015-01-14T00:36:00.001-08:002015-01-14T00:36:51.776-08:00Pengorbanan yang tidak jujur<p dir="ltr">Assalamualaikum...</p>
<p dir="ltr">This is the third attempt on publishing a single entry after delivery. The delivery part will be written here soon. It will take perhaps two or three parts before the story completes. Hehehe. But believe me, i was blessed to have an ease delivery process where it took me just 2 hours and 51 minutes before my baby boy was born. Alhamdulillah. </p>
<p dir="ltr">The story that i would like to share and highlight here is--- why complaining when u had give ur help to others?</p>
<p dir="ltr">I encountered this problem so many times. I am not the one who helped, but received the help with condition of complains in return. This scenario has become the usual routine whenever i fail to perform according to the helpers need. I believe he/she intentions to remind me sorts of help she/he had done to me. But believe me; most of us would never forget what people have done good to us even a single matter like lending you a penny when you really need it at that time. Even a total stranger could turn to be our close friends due to this kind of action. But.... when a helper keep reminds you things they had done--- what will you feel?? Irritating, stressful, and sad at the same time. Even worse, u regret what she/he had done to you. As if the help was just something to make you obey the helper's rule. </p>
<p dir="ltr">Sometimes i am sick of this issue and what best i could do is to think positive all the time. Ignorance and patience is highly needed when this happens. Sometimes i am fully ashamed when an outsider knew this from the helper. Yeah; i am not born to become who u want me to be, but i am trying my best to become the best for what i want to be. It does not matter if you heard others have better than what you have cause not all living in the same shoe. You; may not realized how much other people want to be in your position right now. What we have right now is the best life Allah has given to us. Never regret nor rejected single thing that happened cause sooner or later we will never know that the thing we hate will become the best pieces we need at that time..<br></p>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-14632214878350902752014-11-28T23:02:00.000-08:002014-11-28T23:02:52.641-08:00Masihkah ada cinta?<div style="text-align: justify;">
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masihkah <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="0bd956fc-e109-4d08-be91-24329e2aa3bf" id="2da5e1d0-cc77-4816-8dbb-3b14bd913bbe">ada</span> cinta?? quite heavy kan. tak tau <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="c4bd2b49-561f-477d-8548-c3b1127b69e6" id="146b7325-d0c3-438f-9eaa-c8dd9a3aab40">tibe-tibe</span> dapat idea <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="c4bd2b49-561f-477d-8548-c3b1127b69e6" id="60ff701a-4feb-4917-b41e-32877f31d0d5">ni</span> lepas berbincang dengan husband. its not directly related to anybody or perhaps u may say it as the current issue we face nowadays. what exactly i would like to highlight here is, adakah lagi cinta selepas berpuluh tahun dalam perkahwinan.</div>
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sepatutnya, isteri <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="98eddf2d-ea03-4aa8-a8c8-b1e577aa9e98" id="0a36be83-6d18-407a-aa5b-afc90a030533">dan</span> <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="98eddf2d-ea03-4aa8-a8c8-b1e577aa9e98" id="9954dec3-5cf6-49e4-b0f4-3b6c272cc471">suami</span> seharusnya memainkan <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="98eddf2d-ea03-4aa8-a8c8-b1e577aa9e98" id="a8e7548d-6eec-4a66-b253-cdb0f3e43cbf">peranan</span> penting <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="98eddf2d-ea03-4aa8-a8c8-b1e577aa9e98" id="7e63e77f-021d-4f7a-a646-9b977151de59">dalam</span> institusi kekeluargaan. kena perlu <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="430e25b7-c7c2-4961-afb2-09b59e98d7fd" id="00ad4c6b-5ecb-448b-8fba-2e59908be89c">lebih</span> saling memahami <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="430e25b7-c7c2-4961-afb2-09b59e98d7fd" id="544b6800-2cfb-4bcb-9b19-599dd27926fb">dan</span> bertolak ansur. tidak hanya <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="a505ed3a-e81d-4280-ac06-a0b92ce81b4a" id="19cb993b-0d43-49d6-a006-e1547aef5508">mementingkan</span> diri <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="a505ed3a-e81d-4280-ac06-a0b92ce81b4a" id="3ba39d7f-aa85-480a-9eb6-d3dc099eff18">dan</span> menganggap diri <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="a505ed3a-e81d-4280-ac06-a0b92ce81b4a" id="9545aec1-6921-4255-91b0-8c25bbd2d418">lebih</span> utama. berbincang secara <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="27ef55c2-573a-429d-be2b-154f61e65b48" id="886f8ee6-2cf7-4ae8-9d34-400fbe675fe4">damai</span> sangat penting supaya persetujuaan dapat dicapai <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="27ef55c2-573a-429d-be2b-154f61e65b48" id="6d121af9-f4e8-43cc-85f2-1efe98772d03">di</span> akhirnya..</div>
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aku selalu berdoa supaya Allah panjangkan jodoh kami berdua <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="12e1ebf6-65fa-4005-b0d2-50773321159f" id="adc77b65-f2fa-48b5-8917-1b9cae46519e">dan</span> <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="12e1ebf6-65fa-4005-b0d2-50773321159f" id="3b6e1b0d-b272-444c-9212-812151265d17">setiap</span> <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="12e1ebf6-65fa-4005-b0d2-50773321159f" id="c9e861a7-08ce-4b1c-921e-0b205f72c02d">permasalahan</span> menemui jalan penyelesaian. yang penting kami bersama <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="0e8cd65b-8987-49c0-a6b9-035605f9a3bc" id="49103d2c-3a89-44fd-bf88-30bd73c8810d">kerana</span> Allah <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="0e8cd65b-8987-49c0-a6b9-035605f9a3bc" id="c717aa77-4dfd-4f61-910d-505a179d6489">dan</span> mengikut <span class="GINGER_SOFTWARE_mark" ginger_software_uiphraseguid="0e8cd65b-8987-49c0-a6b9-035605f9a3bc" id="a09c12b3-68d5-4f4a-b688-c1677295b854">setiap</span> landasan Islam..</div>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-8335571934930726022014-11-13T01:09:00.001-08:002014-11-13T01:09:37.643-08:00Random entry<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Today is a great day. the weather is clear. Syukur Alhamdulillah. As for now, i am still reviewing the journals and other reading materials. nak ikutkan, makin bace, makin pening, cause u tend to go broader than your research. Sebab dalam satu journal, its hard to understand all contents in just one reading. So, kene bace banyak kali and lepas tu kene relate with other people punye research jugak. Then, baru boleh faham and relate dengan research kita. beware not to have overlapping research. sebab tak ade novelty di situ. Since i am in phd research activities, semua kene lgi deep and critical. tak boleh dah buat macam master research dlu. ni totally berkali ganda punya analytical and experiment wise. -_____-</div>
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Since im carrying my son in my womb, i feel more enthusiastic. My focus is higher than i had during my master time. I feel more calm and organize. That is a good sign for me. Even though i easily get fatigue but that never stops me from being focus and distracted. i learn that every unborn baby will reflects to our daily behavior and become more like the mother when they grow up. So i want my child to have my good qualities and become a successful person one day. </div>
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I think thats all i have for now. Just some random photos to share with all of you.. :)</div>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">With my close buddies during my solemnization. Jan 24th</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">malu-malu cat</td></tr>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-43299940084642627382014-10-31T00:56:00.002-07:002014-10-31T00:56:41.480-07:00Another Day<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Today is just another day like yesterday. But i wish it will be much better than yesterday. Cause yesterday i still have productive day. Last night i had a weird dream. Then i woke up having backache. I started to feel the uneasiness like every pregnant women in their third trimester. That was no so serious. I ran to the loo every single hour. My movement now is under restriction which means i need to be extra careful not to overdo any action. Like i have to be so slow when getting down from bed. walking in peaceful pace. hahahaha. thats some of the example. and now sitting on a comfortable chair seems does not help to reduce the back pain. In the interval hour, i will get up and mingle around just to relax my back bone. instead of facing the computer nonstop, i will vary my activities. that is how i overcome my problem. </div>
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This morning too, as i passed the university front gate, i managed to capture the lake view and others. So breathtaking actually bila pagi-pagi dapat tengok suasana macam ni.. :) its like orang kate mood pun boleh jadi tenang and okay smpai la habis kerja.. hahahha.<br />
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-65855750076287290542014-10-28T18:32:00.003-07:002014-10-28T18:32:59.656-07:00Time Spend at the Park<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Yesterday, my hubby and i spent our evening hour at the park. Lepas kerja, rehat sekejap sebab nampak advertisement pasal booth yg bukak dekat oval park for 3 days. Sepanjang pregnant ni pun tak pernah spend mase bersiar-siar or ambil angin langsung, so we decided to lepak la dekat oval park. Mase smpai dh around 5.30. People started to come. Kedai pun baru bukak 3-4. so, order terus chicken oblong. confirm la perut dah start lapar. Best jugak spend mase dekat sini sebab people yang datang bukan utpian je tapi kebanyakkan resident from nearby area. mak bapak bawak anak beriadah, ade yang main kayak, ade yang buat fitness training, ade yang... macam-macam la.. environment and view pun best. lakes pun cantik.. memang dalam utp banyak lake and banyak ikan tapi satu pun guard tak bagi untuk memancing! -___- </div>
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and bile dah lepak dalam 30 minutes, dah start rase penat sangat. sebelum tu dekat office dah start rasa fatigue duduk depan laptop from 0800 to 1700. rest pun sejam itu pun untuk makan and sembahyang. U know what, my husband ni jenis punctual sket bab masa. Masuk kerja mesti before 8 and habis kerja mesti after 5.15 p.m. itu mesti at least die. tapi bagus jugak sebab takdela nampak sangat macam masuk 8 balik mesti sharp 5. hahaha. tpi mase pregnant ni tak menentu, ade mase rasa penat gile. semalam penat yang teruk mengalahkan mase convo. dahsyat sangat. lepas maghrib dah terus baring kat katil sampai my husband balik surau bukak pintu grill yang bising tu pun x sedar. hahaha. pukul 11 bru la bangun kejap nak solat and this morning woke up at 6.30.. berape jam aku tidur? nak dekat 10 hours.. hahahahhahaa. nasib bukan weekend. so kesimpulannya, pregnant women ni tak tentu keadaan badan dia. sometimes boleh tolerate dengan kerja, sometimes tibe-tibe nak lie down mase tu jugak sebab satu badan sengal, sometimes plak nak buat kerja non-stop. but i guess at this term where i am now (third trimester), my condition is more like the first trimester time. Asik nak rehat aje, and cepat penat. kadang-kadang macam tak cukup nafas even mase solat. Solat pun ade mase tak larat nak diri, kene duduk. mase bend nak sujud dari berdiri pun rase tak selesa dekat perut, so solat duduk aje from the beginning. banyak pengorbanan betul nak jadi seorang mom. and selalu jugak memikirkan tentang my mom dlu, macam ni la keadaan and lagi teruk cause masa pregnantkan me, she was working in semiconductor factory. lagi teruk, kene berdiri je selalu.. Thats what makes me appreciate my mom more now.. cause i am feeling it..</div>
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aku rase dah lari topik. dari park story to pregnancy story. hahaha.</div>
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before lagi berpanjangan, lets end it now.. see you in the next entry..</div>
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Its not that im being fancy of the holiday festive this time. But i am super excited cause i can be free for awhile at Malacca. Since the problem i had few weeks ago (regarding my CE), i has been unmotivated to go to work or doing my phd research. My mind was suffocating thinking of the consequences from CE. But, it was not for so long. I realized the strength we obtained from Tahajjud prayer and that is where i become more calm. In Tahajjud itself tell us many benefits that we can get. just refer from the video below. and i more i could add, whenever i recite the Qur'an, i can memorize anything easily and my thinking skills increased in its capacity. hahaha. but actually its true.</div>
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So, today, we will going back to Malacca and spend our weekend there plus i need to attend the antenatal check up in PH. I am now in my 32 weeks (8 months) and there are 8 more weeks before my baby is born.. I am super excited and at the same time feeling nervous and apprehensive. I hope we are in a good condition and have no problem at this stage till the end.<br />
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Selesai sudah convo semalam. Sangat penat tapi berbaloi. sebab dapat spend masa bersama family. hahaha, i brought my baby upstairs too. Excited walaupun careful betul. yela, dah sarat orang cakap. Alhamdulillah, tadi pagi pun dah pegi antenatal check up dekat GH Ipoh. Results from pap smear the other day showed that it was not serious. Cervical bleeding mungkin sebab perubahan hormon. okay, i am not into this medical profession so i cant talk much about the biological circulation happened in my body. hahahahaha.<br />
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Convocation this year was not as big picture i could describe compared to three years ago. The first time always become the most exciting time. But this year even though i have to restrain my movement, but it was a calm moment to me. People noticed my baby bump and let me sat whenever we queue. Yeah, tiring for 2 hours session of standing. Once i stepped into the chancellor hall, i felt relieved. pheww. i saw the chairs and it means rest for me. lalalala. The ceremony ended at almost 1800. i quickly get my parents and husband for photoshoot at nearby studio.<br />
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-80803801461114331182014-10-02T01:53:00.000-07:002014-10-02T01:53:33.227-07:00POST----graduate life?<div style="text-align: justify;">
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I met this one phd guy yesterday. He is actually our colleague and I was amazed by his intellectual. He, even a bit older than me (age does not count), is super ambitious, very determined towards his dream and plans. The way he shared his experiences and journey during phd studies really makes me wonder if I am that capable-- in term of the endurance level. I admitted, even during my master years, it was tough at some part. I even felt quitting the master studies. Every work has its ups and downs. But it depends on how we handle the situation. sooner or later, the problem will gone. like everybody said (the lecturers), if phd is so easy, everyone can have it. So true.</div>
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There was one day I really felt that I want to be someone bookworm. Eat, play, sleep with books. The journals, conferences, seminars, classes and tutorials are the postgraduate's meal. we cannot live without them during our study years. I just want to be as smart as Stephan Hawking. I just want to be like anyone genius and learn how they think. But that was the time when I have no other plan except that study. at this age, I really have to focus a lot of things in my life. I am no longer single, I have other responsibilities, I have to sacrifice other plans just to work another plan out one at the moment. If that does not succeed, I always believe He has a better plan for me. </div>
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Hari ni, betul-betul rasa Monday blues. I think i still can tolerate this MB people are talking bout. I am working at the moment. being RO for my supervisor is the first job i get after studies. never ever once i have this kind of opportunity to become a staff of any organization. lol, pretty lame. I had my bedrest for a week. The doctor said so. So i managed to get fully bedrest and restricted myself for joining the housework at home in Malacca. So this the point why i have MB right now!!</div>
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At this time, i am dreaming of fulfilling my wishes and dreams. it is not just a dream of mine, but our dream. both me and my husband. We really want to build a stable financial as to support our continuous living with the newcomer, our baby. We are trying our best to give the best for this baby. <br />
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-70146845637440040202014-08-19T01:28:00.001-07:002014-08-19T01:29:56.288-07:00Dah agak dah!<div style="text-align: justify;">
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saja ambil masa untuk rehat ni dengan blogging sekejap. tengah kejang kaki so malas nak baca journals tuh. Heee.. actually mase pregnant ni selalu vb (vaginal bleeding). dah dekat 5 kali rasanya. so each time jadik hal tu jadi seram sangat each time rasa sakit kat bawah perut. punya la berhati-hati buat kerja. sikit pun xde nak lasak-lasak macam dulu.</div>
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few times before raya. and after raya sekali. dalam masa dua bulan. but the heaviest blood flow mase puasa. sangat tragic. that time happened around 5 a.m. after sahur, hubby terus hantar ke hospital walaupun at first neglect jugak nak pergi GH. mula-mula nak pergi je pantai hospital tapi fikir balik dua tiga kali, terus cancel. sebab once ckp vb mesti ade thorough check up and i hate it when diorang nak buat ape-ape test. i scared if moderate case become serious case. so sebab tu batalkan hasrat nak pergi ph. Gh pun jadi la. bile check, nasib la semuanya okay and baby pun okay. after two days, bleeding stop. lega sangat.</div>
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Fikir punya fikir, baru teringat yang a day before all bleeding, makan durian. masa paling banyak makan mase puasa. sebab i cannot fast, then apa je favorite terus nak makan. kebetulan dalam fridge memang ade stock durian. that time i remembered that i ate almost sebiji durian. memang banyak. -_____________-</div>
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hopefully my baby will stays healthy in my belly. kicking all day long shows that he is so active and healthy. love you baby. mama and abah love you so much!!</div>
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F Hzhhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15034596855900994787noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5456561014562602557.post-80612617838065887812014-07-16T01:53:00.000-07:002014-07-16T01:53:31.738-07:00Cry Baby CryToday is so exhausting, i feel like wanna cry. So freaking tired and i think i could not drive back home on my own.<br />
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Its not about the clearance sale or what, tapi clearance for PG student. I hate it so much cause it physical torture for me. As for my condition right now, cepat sangat la letih. Nasib la tak berhenti sepanjang jalan sebab nak sampai block cepat. The finance system totally #&^!$*.. Department lain mcm security and residential village bg statement X, tapi statement finance terus bagi Z. memang pening kepale nak settlekan satu-satu. Department masing-masing punya jauh. bila sampai nak mintak sign, terus cakap, oh selagi department yg lagi satu tak sign kami tak boleh nak sign!. kang senang kalau korang bagi flowchart tak payah la buang masa dan tenaga berjalan. Letih. Tambah lagi bulan puasa kan. memang la boleh pengsan.</div>
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Bile clearance settle, akan rasa lega mcam lepas baru habis degree. seriously. mampu ke nak habiskan 11 department on the go? hehehe, tak lepas kot nak settlekan sehari. kalau yang gagah boleh la buat dua hari. kalau yang berbadan dua, tiga, empat confirm seminggu belum tentu. mengah nak panjat tangga satu-satu lagi-lagi CGS!. </div>
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Itu jela story hari ni smbil makan apple. tak boleh puasa sejak awal Ramadhan sebab gastrik dengan migrain memang combine sekali bile puasa. Laparrrr sangat. </div>
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Dah macam azam Ramadhan Sue pulak entry kali ni.</div>
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Im back. Dah Ramadhan baru muncul. Tapi puasa kali ni tak macam taun-taun lepas. memang kene cuti sebab tak tahan nak tanggung <b>gastrik n migrain</b>. pheww...smpai ke hari ni cuma dua hari je lepas. This morning went to clinic for monthly checkup, xjmpe doktor pun, then nurse and monthly routine kene check darah nak make sure darah okay. banyak sgt term smpai refer nurse kenape kene highlight. just to make sure yg next appointment result lagi better. So far, <b>Hb yang makin menurun</b>, sampai ferum pun diorang bagi suruh makan dua biji dua kali sehari. double tuuuu. </div>
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Perut selalu sgt lapar. dh jadi macam kebiasaan. Mcam monster asik makan je tapi berat aku seriously tak naik pun. maintain 55kg jugak. tpi tadi sebab takut kene bebel dengan nurse, aku measure weight sekali dengan hp and brg lain dlm pocket., hehehe. naikla 200 gram. hahaha. jadi la dri langsung xnaik. tapi mase pregnant ni makan memang xde selera sgt. Aku just bleh makan dengan selera kalau makanan masam or pedas. yang lain tak terbayang langsung nak makan. kalau ade sambal sket pun dh jadi dah. Last week balik kampung Temerloh sebab berbuka dengan the whole family sblh husband, mmg meriah. so lauk semua masak pedas sebab ramai kat sana yang jenis makan pedas except family members husband. itupun tak dapat nak makan banyak. sebab dah penat satu hari tu. sampai ke malam letihnye, perut pun dh start rase tak best. sakit macam sengal dekat otot. Kalau bab toilet, tak yah cerita, <b>average ke toilet dah 20-30 kali. </b>even tengah malam akan terjaga dari pukul 12 smpai pukul 4. hahahahhaa. kelakar betul la bile ade orang cerita yang certain perempuan dh tak larat asik pergi toilet setiap masa s<b>ampai kencing je kat tilam</b> or pakai pampers. bayangkanlah yang rumah dua tingkat xde toilet kat atas, mesti la penat nak turun naik tangga. </div>
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Tapi my instinct dh kuat mengatakan yang inside my womb is a <b>handsome baby boy</b>. Entah la, tapi takut kang scan baby girl. So skrg ni belum ader persiapan beli apa2 lagi sebab baru 4 months. Tggu 5 months onward la baru survey and bli brg baby. Looking forward nak pergi <b>baby expo</b>, sebab ramai cakap sale and murah sangat compare to dekat store or online. </div>
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Study? dh start dah research. phd is quite challenging but im still in the beginning stage so Alhamdulillah masih okay. reviews je la setiap hari. official phd start belum lagi tapi since dah free masa ni, start prepare awal. Here comes the <b>3 years journey</b> to become a doctor. InshaAllah. Semoga Dia permudahkan segala kesulitan. :)</div>
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Itu je la. Panjang sgt dah tulis.</div>
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<b>Selamat berpuasa dan bertarawikh semua. :)</b><br />
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Assalamualaikum.<br />
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