Of hectic Life

Assalamualaikum. Evening and hoping everyone a blessful life. Im now lying on bed alone while waiting for the family to arrive.

Actually we had an event here in Cameron Highlands. The event commenced on Sunday night. So i travelled on my own with CeC, taking simpang pulai route to reach here. Cause im scared to death driving along Tapah route, i decided to take the longer one. Drained but safe. 😩

Jotting some thoughts here wouldn't be harmful since I've been not blogging for quite some time. Past week really dreadful and i felt like no time to breath properly, to sleep peacefully, to munch food easily,--- its like time is running too fast, like a bullet or to be exaggerated - - the time pass like a flash of light. Im scared of the tasks piling over my head, my hand is just 2, but to do all, im gasping. I cant fully rely on sources i have. I can't trust them to work in this kind of situation as they are quite laze around kind of person. I guess they need training to work and do things quick. Quick and skillful. Not a heedless one of course.

So i was dead (read: almost knocked out)

And now, the event had come to an end, enjoying the balance of hours here before returning to hectic schedule and soon ramadhan coming.

But wait. I just wanna declare my kind of thoughts here on man. They always think their sugary talk can buy girl time to spend with them. 😂😂😂

I guess don't just randomly assume woman the same. Sometimes when u try to ignite the fire, u are actually playing with danger. It doesn't light the candle but a thunder. So watch out.

The event held (28 - 30 April 2019)

Swiss Garden Beach Resort

Assalamualaikum



its been a year since my last post. i cant denied how 'busy' my schedule was and literally i have time now. :P

 writing has been my passion since forever. but time always chasing using bullet train speed i cant even breath to perform my ritual activities. anyway, lets not to put blame on time, its me who is lack of discipline.

few days back, we went for short vacation without my husband. We (my pils and son) stayed in Swiss Garden Resort Residence Kuantan. i booked the apartment via airbnb as i have great experienced staying there before during our company's family day.

so here few photos from the short vacation we had.

All About MiniMe

Assalamualaikum and holla!

Its me.

its friday and nobody is here. i mean literally nobody here. the past two days were holiday-- so many of us took leave till friday but me. kalaula aku apply jugak cuti hari ini confirm-confirm la atok tu mengamuk dan perli-perli. his mind cannot tolerate the absence of two engineers at the same time. (sorng lagi engineer tak perlu kira, i guess his presence means nothing to anyone, seriously he is so annoying as shit,!) astaghfirullahalazim.  seriously i easily get pissed if his name or figure come across my mind even just for a second!

okay, back to the topic.

i have many days to babysit my baby actually minus the weekend when my husband is working. yeah. he works on Saturday! 

i get the chance myself to be so close with Umar. at this age, his charming personality comes to life when he likes me to piggyback him and whenever he wanna sleeps, he will urge me to follow him and pat him to sleep. no more Abah. previous, that was Abah's chore every single night. now no more. hahaha, cause Abah tak akan layan cakap - cakap dengan dia before sleep. But, he insists me to sing, or spell words, or crack jokes, or anything that can makes him giggle. hahaha. only then he will  turn to face me and get so close to me while holding his bottle and fell asleep on his own. sometimes his tiny fingers linger around my eyes or lips or anything that he feel want to touch. sometimes, if he's too tired, it just takes 10 mins for him to doze off. my charming little boy. i wonder how he will be when its time to enter school, or when he sits for UPSR. or when he's in undergraduate studies. oh my, how is it when he has someone he likes and loves and he then has to tell me all his secret things. but, i always picture that he has siblings that so close. i dont have really wonderful siblings relationship so i hope i can plant them from the day Umar has his brother / sister. i believe, every parents has to guide and nature the positive vibes so that the will understand and help each other even the parents are gone. 

To Umar,

Mama always be by your side even my presence no longer exist in this world. u need to know that every prayer, i always for your betterness, for you to be Hafiz, to be a true leader that lead the Ummah. and there is reason why i named you Umar. Believe in yourself that every hurdle has the solution and you must stay strong even everyone around you pull you down.

till now sayang. 

Deerland Park, Lanchang  (Dec 31st, 2017)

Bleed

Title sounds cliche.

Assalamualaikum and good morning everyone.

Last post is still this month. so it means, im progressing well. dont ya think? 

just to share few things that i ponder.

does it feel hard for you to stop and think before you ever spit a word? words sometimes take forever to heal if you ever hurt someone feeling.

i know, sometimes misunderstanding can create deeper and wider trench between two parties. forgiveness make them seal. however, all cracks might join together but there is still small gap between each joint. such as a broken pretty vase will no longer look the same after its being fixed.

so, mind your tongue. careful. you have built the most beautiful relationship for many years, yet it only takes you a second to split them forever.

Assalamualaikum.

2k18 and You!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

Hai people. its 2018. how time flies when i last posted here. anyway, i hope everyone enjoy the opening of 2018 and have lots of ambitious plan for the future ahead. hope the plan goes well.

meanwhile, as i officially turn 29 when 1st Jan arrived, i feel i am too old to have a celebration. i feel no excitement in celebrating thus i pray to God that He bless me in every good deed i made. if  still live in yr chequered past, this is the time now for you to move forward. i am bless of what i have now, of what i achieved (even its too small for everyone to notice, but of course i dont ask for anyone to see the outcome only to believe, and i am far from being proud-- of course), of the supportive family and colleagues. i could not asking for more but always pray for the betterment in me and the rest of the world. life is too short that we dont even know our expiry date.

since 2018 is getting challenging, i wish and work hard to stand strong and trudge any obstacles nor hindrance. live yr life religiously and inshaAllah He always there to hear and listen from yr every wish and doa.

Happy New Year to everyone, Happy living yourlife wholeheartedly!

you who can change the way you wanna be! and stay Positive babe!

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

-H.Farha H.-

Don't Count On Anyone

Assalamualaikum

As per today, i have the best ride to work as usual. I dont exactly know how to describe the feeling --- of riding together to work-- i would best relate it to intimacy/the closeness. Surely it is one of surreal thing.

I arrived late. 3 minutes delayed. The first red mark on my punch card. i care not to this matter. hahahaha.


Secondly, a news i received from someone higher (in authority) which brings the dullness all of sudden. i hate to say this, or even to think of this more than i should do. I just want to say this, DonT count on other especially when it relates to your work. i discovered myself on why other person can misjudge you because of your innocent wrongdoings. its clear that i can see some of this irresponsible people that do harm "unintentionally".

i dont wanna be the eternal judge on this matter. Let Him do His work cause He knows everything than we did.

Panic Cramp?

its like hitting me out of nowhere. it seems the word is not real but using it seems to be so cool. that is my personal view. so i just finished emceeing and its kinda thrill at first. after 20 minutes (in general) i started to get the vibe in controlling my voice, my tone, my pace and everything while reading the text. to be honest, and its obvious too that i have no talent to become the emcee. its just that the turn has come and i have to do that. if not now, sooner or later, i still NEED to be the emcee. my partner is good. i mean, he was nervous too. but for the sake of our TURN, i surrender myself with no complain. hahaha.


coming back to the office, i started to feel curious. i really don't know why i always be in an awkward feeling among the officers. they are the juniors who recently work in the branch and whenever i speak to my assistant, their friends will giggle and it seems to me that there is some story being spread behind me. sometimes, it does disturb my feeling. being my assistant, there are a lot of task to be done quickly, you need to rush, you have no proper meal time, i do so. so if i can do that, you too have to the same. we work in equivalent work load. no more, and no less. i even did myself for tasks which i prefer to do own my own.

I hope this ends quick. i really have no time to think of it deeper. the sooner it disappear, the better it will be.

i just want to stop now.

im having this menstrual cramp.

and actually it is the menstrual cramp im having. not a panic cramp!.

I am panic because i need to write this.


THE END.