Higher than u cant expect

Assalamualaikum....

I wish i could write it anytime i want, whenever the idea pop out like this time-- at this moment... i believe this is the only medium that i could express my feelings, my thoughts of any issue, critically criticize in any aspects it should be criticize.

I--- should never question a holiness of someone which is superior than me in which their level are beyond my degree of authority. When they are higher in ranking of respect, i expect them to teach me or at least i learn a lot of positive life values to be applied in my future. But then, when comes the unethical values potrayed in their action; i started to question the holiness of the person. In return, the respect u have for that kind of person, will decrease. I am not sure if you can understand this, but let me give you an example. If to debate on religion point of view, u would never argue with an ustaz or ustazah which we know that they are expert in that area and when they slightly done any mistake in the public, people will smack them down like they never ever did any good things before. That is how the reaction of our society towards this kind of issue. You must show a good example to the people around you so that no finger will be pointed towards you on inappropriate actions.

So, here in my case, i am no longer a toddler that can be cheated on any result you made. I am here to judge and i can value myself what kind of people you are. This is general principle ethics that you must always think good of others, never make any speculation towards others unless you witness yourself the wrongdoings they have made. But that is still not enough to drop any conclusion that a person is bad. Its your eyes that may trick you. I always wanted my now and future to be different from what i was raised. To change the negativity mindset into positive ones.. too much influence from badmouth people will destroy our peaceful mind and judgement. So stay away from this people.

In 2015; i wish and work to become a better person than i am before. Become an understanding mother to my dearest son, splendid wife to my lovable husband and a pious slave to my Creator. InshaAllah. My vision is to still perform the sunnah like i did before continously, becoming more humble and work hard to finish my phd studies.

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Its Holiday Time

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Its not that im being fancy of the holiday festive this time. But i am super excited cause i can be free for awhile at Malacca. Since the problem i had few weeks ago (regarding my CE), i has been unmotivated to go to work or doing my phd research. My mind was suffocating thinking of the consequences from CE. But, it was not for so long. I realized the strength we obtained from Tahajjud prayer and that is where i become more calm. In Tahajjud itself tell us many benefits that we can get. just refer from the video below. and i more i could add, whenever i recite the Qur'an, i can memorize anything easily and my thinking skills increased in its capacity. hahaha. but actually its true.

So, today, we will going back to Malacca and spend our weekend there plus i need to attend the antenatal check up in PH. I am now in my 32 weeks (8 months) and there are 8 more weeks before my baby is born.. I am super excited and at the same time feeling nervous and apprehensive. I hope we are in a good condition and have no problem at this stage till the end.


As for now, i need to speed up my phd work. more and more preparations have to be done before my maternity leave. at least i am not feeling guilty for doing nothing in 2 months. :)

See you guys in the next entry.


Assalamualaikum.

 

Convocation 2014. The time to upgrade your academic qualification.

Assalamualaikum..

Selesai sudah convo semalam. Sangat penat tapi berbaloi. sebab dapat spend masa bersama family. hahaha, i brought my baby upstairs too. Excited walaupun careful betul. yela, dah sarat orang cakap. Alhamdulillah, tadi pagi pun dah pegi antenatal check up dekat GH Ipoh. Results from pap smear the other day showed that it was not serious. Cervical bleeding mungkin sebab perubahan hormon. okay, i am not into this medical profession so i cant talk much about the biological circulation happened in my body. hahahahaha.


Convocation this year was not as big picture i could describe compared to three years ago. The first time always become the most exciting time. But this year even though i have to restrain my movement, but it was a calm moment to me. People noticed my baby bump and let me sat whenever we queue. Yeah, tiring for 2 hours session of standing. Once i stepped into the chancellor hall, i felt relieved. pheww. i saw the chairs and it means rest for me. lalalala. The ceremony ended at almost 1800. i quickly get my parents and husband for photoshoot at nearby studio.


after numbers of frame, we headed home to pray. that was too late for us and honestly i could say that the evening session should ended more early. Cut all the unrelated performances to save more time for muslim to perform their solat. Even the ceremony started at 2.30, but we (the graduates) have to come 2 hours early. hate it. lagi-lagi i nak jalan pun lambat. naik stairs pun kene careful. or it is just me who have such complain while others x kisah? hurm.. but its okay sbb that is my personal two cents.


So here are some photos we took before and during the ceremony.

Me with my superbestfriend/hubsy/soulmate

me with you-know-who/roommate/crazybuddy/bestfriend

So that is the update from ceremony. See you next entry.


:)


Assalamualaikum

POST----graduate life?

Assalamualaikum,

 

I met this one phd guy yesterday. He is actually our colleague and I was amazed by his intellectual. He, even a bit older than me (age does not count), is super ambitious, very determined towards his dream and plans. The way he shared his experiences and journey during phd studies really makes me wonder if I am that capable-- in term of the endurance level. I admitted, even during my master years, it was tough at some part. I even felt quitting the master studies. Every work has its ups and downs. But it depends on how we handle the situation. sooner or later, the problem will gone. like everybody said (the lecturers), if phd is so easy, everyone can have it. So true.

 

 

There was one day I really felt that I want to be someone bookworm. Eat, play, sleep with books. The journals, conferences, seminars, classes and tutorials are the postgraduate's meal. we cannot live without them during our study years. I just want to be as smart as Stephan Hawking. I just want to be like anyone genius and learn how they think. But that was the time when I have no other plan except that study. at this age, I really have to focus a lot of things in my life. I am no longer single, I have other responsibilities, I have to sacrifice other plans just to work another plan out one at the moment. If that does not succeed, I always believe He has a better plan for me.

 

 

So it depends on ourselves. Either we are a good planner?



 

Clearance!

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Its not about the clearance sale or what, tapi clearance for PG student. I hate it so much cause it physical torture for me. As for my condition right now, cepat sangat la letih. Nasib la tak berhenti sepanjang jalan sebab nak sampai block cepat. The finance system totally #&^!$*.. Department lain mcm security and residential village bg statement X, tapi statement finance terus bagi Z. memang pening kepale nak settlekan satu-satu. Department masing-masing punya jauh. bila sampai nak mintak sign, terus cakap, oh selagi department yg lagi satu tak sign kami tak boleh nak sign!. kang senang kalau korang bagi flowchart tak payah la buang masa dan tenaga berjalan. Letih. Tambah lagi bulan puasa kan. memang la boleh pengsan.

Bile clearance settle, akan rasa lega mcam lepas baru habis degree. seriously. mampu ke nak habiskan 11 department on the go? hehehe, tak lepas kot nak settlekan sehari. kalau yang gagah boleh la buat dua hari. kalau yang berbadan dua, tiga, empat confirm seminggu belum tentu. mengah nak panjat tangga satu-satu lagi-lagi CGS!. 

Itu jela story hari ni smbil makan apple. tak boleh puasa sejak awal Ramadhan sebab gastrik dengan migrain memang combine sekali bile puasa. Laparrrr sangat. 

Okay. selamat berbuka puasa untuk semua nanti.

Dah macam azam Ramadhan Sue pulak entry kali ni.

Not Enough Rest

Assalamualaikum

Im back. Dah Ramadhan baru muncul. Tapi puasa kali ni tak macam taun-taun lepas. memang kene cuti sebab tak tahan nak tanggung gastrik n migrain. pheww...smpai ke hari ni cuma dua hari je lepas. This morning went to clinic for monthly checkup, xjmpe doktor pun, then nurse and monthly routine kene check darah nak make sure darah okay. banyak sgt term smpai refer nurse kenape kene highlight. just to make sure yg next appointment result lagi better. So far, Hb yang makin menurun, sampai ferum pun diorang bagi suruh makan dua biji dua kali sehari. double tuuuu. 

Perut selalu sgt lapar. dh jadi macam kebiasaan. Mcam monster asik makan je tapi berat aku seriously tak naik pun. maintain 55kg jugak. tpi tadi sebab takut kene bebel dengan nurse, aku measure weight sekali dengan hp and brg lain dlm pocket., hehehe. naikla 200 gram. hahaha. jadi la dri langsung xnaik. tapi mase pregnant ni makan memang xde selera sgt. Aku just bleh makan dengan selera kalau makanan masam or pedas. yang lain tak terbayang langsung nak makan. kalau ade sambal sket pun dh jadi dah. Last week balik kampung Temerloh sebab berbuka dengan the whole family sblh husband, mmg meriah. so lauk semua masak pedas sebab ramai kat sana yang jenis makan pedas except family members husband. itupun tak dapat nak makan banyak. sebab dah penat satu hari tu. sampai ke malam letihnye, perut pun dh start rase tak best. sakit macam sengal dekat otot. Kalau bab toilet, tak yah cerita, average ke toilet dah 20-30 kali. even tengah malam akan terjaga dari pukul 12 smpai pukul 4. hahahahhaa. kelakar betul la bile ade orang cerita yang certain perempuan dh tak larat asik pergi toilet setiap masa sampai kencing je kat tilam or pakai pampers. bayangkanlah yang rumah dua tingkat xde toilet kat atas, mesti la penat nak turun naik tangga. 

Tapi my instinct dh kuat mengatakan yang inside my womb is a handsome baby boy. Entah la, tapi takut kang scan baby girl. So skrg ni belum ader persiapan beli apa2 lagi sebab baru 4 months. Tggu 5 months onward la baru survey and bli brg baby. Looking forward nak pergi baby expo, sebab ramai cakap sale and murah sangat compare to dekat store or online. 

Study? dh start dah research. phd is quite challenging but im still in the beginning stage so Alhamdulillah masih okay. reviews je la setiap hari. official phd start belum lagi tapi since dah free masa ni, start prepare awal. Here comes the 3 years journey to become a doctor. InshaAllah. Semoga Dia permudahkan segala kesulitan. :)

Itu je la. Panjang sgt dah tulis.

Selamat berpuasa dan bertarawikh semua. :)

Assalamualaikum.

Ya Ya, What To Do

Assalamualaikum.

Hope everyone is doing fine. well, i woke so early this morning. As early 5 a.m, i woke up all of sudden and feel energized. Perhaps i slept early as well. when the husband slept at 10 last night, i decided to spend some time finishing his candy crush level and i failed. hahahaa, so went to bed it is!.

i cooked this morning. Made his favorite spicy butter chicken and mix veges. i brought the meals to the office so that we would not spent much buying lunch. :)

today, i shall complete my rehearsal. need to practise in front of him today. i planned to have the mock viva with my sv tomorrow.

wish me luck.

oh well, yesterday i talked to my mil and i felt extra blessed. :) 

thats all. have a nice day everyone.

Assalamualaikum