Higher than u cant expect

Assalamualaikum....

I wish i could write it anytime i want, whenever the idea pop out like this time-- at this moment... i believe this is the only medium that i could express my feelings, my thoughts of any issue, critically criticize in any aspects it should be criticize.

I--- should never question a holiness of someone which is superior than me in which their level are beyond my degree of authority. When they are higher in ranking of respect, i expect them to teach me or at least i learn a lot of positive life values to be applied in my future. But then, when comes the unethical values potrayed in their action; i started to question the holiness of the person. In return, the respect u have for that kind of person, will decrease. I am not sure if you can understand this, but let me give you an example. If to debate on religion point of view, u would never argue with an ustaz or ustazah which we know that they are expert in that area and when they slightly done any mistake in the public, people will smack them down like they never ever did any good things before. That is how the reaction of our society towards this kind of issue. You must show a good example to the people around you so that no finger will be pointed towards you on inappropriate actions.

So, here in my case, i am no longer a toddler that can be cheated on any result you made. I am here to judge and i can value myself what kind of people you are. This is general principle ethics that you must always think good of others, never make any speculation towards others unless you witness yourself the wrongdoings they have made. But that is still not enough to drop any conclusion that a person is bad. Its your eyes that may trick you. I always wanted my now and future to be different from what i was raised. To change the negativity mindset into positive ones.. too much influence from badmouth people will destroy our peaceful mind and judgement. So stay away from this people.

In 2015; i wish and work to become a better person than i am before. Become an understanding mother to my dearest son, splendid wife to my lovable husband and a pious slave to my Creator. InshaAllah. My vision is to still perform the sunnah like i did before continously, becoming more humble and work hard to finish my phd studies.

;)

Convocation 2014. The time to upgrade your academic qualification.

Assalamualaikum..

Selesai sudah convo semalam. Sangat penat tapi berbaloi. sebab dapat spend masa bersama family. hahaha, i brought my baby upstairs too. Excited walaupun careful betul. yela, dah sarat orang cakap. Alhamdulillah, tadi pagi pun dah pegi antenatal check up dekat GH Ipoh. Results from pap smear the other day showed that it was not serious. Cervical bleeding mungkin sebab perubahan hormon. okay, i am not into this medical profession so i cant talk much about the biological circulation happened in my body. hahahahaha.


Convocation this year was not as big picture i could describe compared to three years ago. The first time always become the most exciting time. But this year even though i have to restrain my movement, but it was a calm moment to me. People noticed my baby bump and let me sat whenever we queue. Yeah, tiring for 2 hours session of standing. Once i stepped into the chancellor hall, i felt relieved. pheww. i saw the chairs and it means rest for me. lalalala. The ceremony ended at almost 1800. i quickly get my parents and husband for photoshoot at nearby studio.


after numbers of frame, we headed home to pray. that was too late for us and honestly i could say that the evening session should ended more early. Cut all the unrelated performances to save more time for muslim to perform their solat. Even the ceremony started at 2.30, but we (the graduates) have to come 2 hours early. hate it. lagi-lagi i nak jalan pun lambat. naik stairs pun kene careful. or it is just me who have such complain while others x kisah? hurm.. but its okay sbb that is my personal two cents.


So here are some photos we took before and during the ceremony.

Me with my superbestfriend/hubsy/soulmate

me with you-know-who/roommate/crazybuddy/bestfriend

So that is the update from ceremony. See you next entry.


:)


Assalamualaikum

Dah agak dah!

Assalamualaikum...

saja ambil masa untuk rehat ni dengan blogging sekejap. tengah kejang kaki so malas nak baca journals tuh. Heee.. actually mase pregnant ni selalu vb (vaginal bleeding). dah dekat 5 kali rasanya. so each time jadik hal tu jadi seram sangat each time rasa sakit kat bawah perut. punya la berhati-hati buat kerja. sikit pun xde nak lasak-lasak macam dulu.

few times before raya. and after raya sekali. dalam masa dua bulan. but the heaviest blood flow mase puasa. sangat tragic. that time happened around 5 a.m. after sahur, hubby terus hantar ke hospital walaupun at first neglect jugak nak pergi GH. mula-mula nak pergi je pantai hospital tapi fikir balik dua tiga kali, terus cancel. sebab once ckp vb mesti ade thorough check up and i hate it when diorang nak buat ape-ape test. i scared if moderate case become serious case. so sebab tu batalkan hasrat nak pergi ph. Gh pun jadi la. bile check, nasib la semuanya okay and baby pun okay. after two days, bleeding stop. lega sangat.

Fikir punya fikir, baru teringat yang a day before all bleeding, makan durian. masa paling banyak makan mase puasa. sebab i cannot fast, then apa je favorite terus nak makan. kebetulan dalam fridge memang ade stock durian. that time i remembered that i ate almost sebiji durian. memang banyak. -_____________-

masa raya pun makan durian lagi. yang lagi fresh makan lepas jatuh dr pokok terus makan. rumah makcik memang ada pokok durian, pokok buah-buah lain pun banyak. tukang kopek buah pun ramai. jadi tinggal makan. 

so now, bleeding dah tak ada. terus tak nak dah makan durian. pernah gak baca dekat blog orang lain yang dia gugur lepas makan durian. masa tu usia kandungan dia baru 2 bulan lebih. so sekarang ni kene careful la dengan apa yang di makan masa pregnant ni. plus hb sy pun rendah dah skrg ni. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

hopefully my baby will stays healthy in my belly. kicking all day long shows that he is so active and healthy. love you baby. mama and abah love you so much!!

the big family from Ismail's clan

i always love you hubby... :)

Not Enough Rest

Assalamualaikum

Im back. Dah Ramadhan baru muncul. Tapi puasa kali ni tak macam taun-taun lepas. memang kene cuti sebab tak tahan nak tanggung gastrik n migrain. pheww...smpai ke hari ni cuma dua hari je lepas. This morning went to clinic for monthly checkup, xjmpe doktor pun, then nurse and monthly routine kene check darah nak make sure darah okay. banyak sgt term smpai refer nurse kenape kene highlight. just to make sure yg next appointment result lagi better. So far, Hb yang makin menurun, sampai ferum pun diorang bagi suruh makan dua biji dua kali sehari. double tuuuu. 

Perut selalu sgt lapar. dh jadi macam kebiasaan. Mcam monster asik makan je tapi berat aku seriously tak naik pun. maintain 55kg jugak. tpi tadi sebab takut kene bebel dengan nurse, aku measure weight sekali dengan hp and brg lain dlm pocket., hehehe. naikla 200 gram. hahaha. jadi la dri langsung xnaik. tapi mase pregnant ni makan memang xde selera sgt. Aku just bleh makan dengan selera kalau makanan masam or pedas. yang lain tak terbayang langsung nak makan. kalau ade sambal sket pun dh jadi dah. Last week balik kampung Temerloh sebab berbuka dengan the whole family sblh husband, mmg meriah. so lauk semua masak pedas sebab ramai kat sana yang jenis makan pedas except family members husband. itupun tak dapat nak makan banyak. sebab dah penat satu hari tu. sampai ke malam letihnye, perut pun dh start rase tak best. sakit macam sengal dekat otot. Kalau bab toilet, tak yah cerita, average ke toilet dah 20-30 kali. even tengah malam akan terjaga dari pukul 12 smpai pukul 4. hahahahhaa. kelakar betul la bile ade orang cerita yang certain perempuan dh tak larat asik pergi toilet setiap masa sampai kencing je kat tilam or pakai pampers. bayangkanlah yang rumah dua tingkat xde toilet kat atas, mesti la penat nak turun naik tangga. 

Tapi my instinct dh kuat mengatakan yang inside my womb is a handsome baby boy. Entah la, tapi takut kang scan baby girl. So skrg ni belum ader persiapan beli apa2 lagi sebab baru 4 months. Tggu 5 months onward la baru survey and bli brg baby. Looking forward nak pergi baby expo, sebab ramai cakap sale and murah sangat compare to dekat store or online. 

Study? dh start dah research. phd is quite challenging but im still in the beginning stage so Alhamdulillah masih okay. reviews je la setiap hari. official phd start belum lagi tapi since dah free masa ni, start prepare awal. Here comes the 3 years journey to become a doctor. InshaAllah. Semoga Dia permudahkan segala kesulitan. :)

Itu je la. Panjang sgt dah tulis.

Selamat berpuasa dan bertarawikh semua. :)

Assalamualaikum.

Ya Ya, What To Do

Assalamualaikum.

Hope everyone is doing fine. well, i woke so early this morning. As early 5 a.m, i woke up all of sudden and feel energized. Perhaps i slept early as well. when the husband slept at 10 last night, i decided to spend some time finishing his candy crush level and i failed. hahahaa, so went to bed it is!.

i cooked this morning. Made his favorite spicy butter chicken and mix veges. i brought the meals to the office so that we would not spent much buying lunch. :)

today, i shall complete my rehearsal. need to practise in front of him today. i planned to have the mock viva with my sv tomorrow.

wish me luck.

oh well, yesterday i talked to my mil and i felt extra blessed. :) 

thats all. have a nice day everyone.

Assalamualaikum

Sweet Escape

Assalamualaikum.

hope everyone is in the pink of health. Well currently i am here breathing happily and back to my normal routine from crack to the dawn. I will be presenting my research soon. Wish me all the best so that this 30 minutes presentation will be enough for the panel judges to satisfy and pass my master degree! Amin. 

I just came back from Temerloh-PortDickson trip. Only Allah knows how tiring this trip was. But my husband and i had a whale of a time during this four days week off. Despite the long time of traveling, i guess 7 hours of slept last night were more than sufficient. We attended his sister's convocation at Poli PD and we wished that she will further her studies for another level. :) Congratulations on your convocation and may this year we will celebrating the convocation together. :)

just some interlude...

1. I realized that whenever we came back from anywhere and recited the ayat-Qursi before stepping into the house, we feel warmer and calmer at the same time. when there is potential of misunderstanding of an issue, it will end up peacefully. We were told by my father-in-law this routine may keep our home peacefully and stop the entrance of the devils into the house. InshaAllah if we keep practising this attitude, we will prevent any bad aura around us. :)

2. i do also realized that we seldom had our selfies together. hahaha. perhaps we dont even think of taking photos together whenever we are doing anything or perhaps our mind are so dense with other matters? cause i recently noticed most of my married girl friends always posted their photo together with their loved one's so it made me a little jealous. hahaha. 

3. My husband use to drive so fast like he is in drift lane or what? i sometimes feel uneasy with this situation where he keep his acceleration going linearly as if the maximum speed is unlimited!. it drives me up the wall!. this is so contradicting to his manner during our early relationship before we were married.

4. We still haven't experienced our honeymoon yet so... i am thinking of Mecca & Madina. :) Pray to Him that He granted our wish. 

thats it.

i have to go.

please count, less that 3 weeks to my viva date!

Assalamualaikum

We had this last Monday

Extremely cheap if to compare during our CD in UTP

Us :)