If only you miss me

Assalamualaikum

Well I am back. bagus la nya selepas beberape bulan baru nak muncul balik. Muncul balik dgn title mama & student. -___- sunggul cool (tpi emoticon sebaliknye). hahahaha.

hari ni story pasal ape? dangg. okay, updates on my baby would be one of it. Umar now is reaching 4 months old. So far, i am truly happy with his developments. Die sangat active, cheeky, friendly, and quick learner. I believe he has good potential to be someone one day. Amin. to compare his physical with other same age babies, i think dia ikut abah dia kot. heeeeee. rendang but cute. i dont care as long as my baby is healthy. So far, Umar tak pernah demam or selsema. After jab pun still standing strong like nothing happen. Nowadays, both of us dah start bagi flashcard untuk die belajar. kenal words, alif sampai ya, objects and others. he started to concentrate on things that we show to him. walaupun kadang-kadang die ngantuk, but still attend to what we are trying to show him. Umar likes Upin Ipin too.. hahaha, skrg muka die pun i rasa dh nak sama dengan watak Ipin Upin dgn rambut sikit dkt atas kepala too. He is quite heavy too. Kuat susu. talking bout milk, im trying to increase my supply sbb kdg-kdg i am not well discipline when comes to pumping. tpi many say that u should DL to increase ur supply. so weekend je la i start nk buat balik PP. :)

Nextttttttttt........

My research work? Holla. i am now in RPD mode. btw, tgah nak completekan BAPC which is the annual conference for all PG students. Its  a must for all or else xde grade la utk this semester. Thinking of what to expand more in composite structures area. must be hard ya thinking sampai ke sudah, last-last jumpe idea dlm toilet. not sooo cooooooool -__________- (major nsc). Research mode still tgh increase the pace. oh, my dear friend nak start her phd journey this coming july. when i heard the news, i was like >___________<  Major yeaaaaaaaaaaaaay! now i have a lady company (instead of my husband) to mingle around. dulu ade nana, and now she is staying in kl. So when adha moves here later, we are like 3 stooges. haahaha. okay, i pray to God that Nana will found her prince charming and later decide to stay in tronoh and build their family and have kids and work here together (bla bla bla).. like tak berkembang betul social aku ni. pusing-pusing the same faces i see. hahahhaa. anyway, its good to be close with yr best buddy sebab ko tak payah nak cerita some part of yr private life from the beginning till tak tau when will end to  a now people kan??? i get my fact right kan? hahahhaa. She was my roommate since we started our master sampai la now nak jadi residentmates. gile crazy perempuan ni, sbb she asked me to ask people nearby nak sewa rumah. aku la jadi mangsa. who else la ade kat sini kan???

So to conclude all,

i am satisfied with what i have for now, Thanks to the Almighty who ease my journey. susah senang memang ada, but alhamdulillah we manage to face our challenges together. whatever happens, we learn from it. mistakes make us stronger to face other higher difficulties. The more He tests us, the stronger we would be.

thats it from me,

if only you miss me.......... :| (major plain)

Bye.

Assalamualaikum.

A. M. Umar bin M. Affiq

Love u to moon then surround the universe!!

Another Day

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Today is just another day like yesterday. But i wish it will be much better than yesterday. Cause yesterday i still have productive day. Last night i had a weird dream. Then i woke up having backache. I started to feel the uneasiness like every pregnant women in their third trimester. That was no so serious. I ran to the loo every single hour. My movement now is under restriction which means i need to be extra careful not to overdo any action. Like i have to be so slow when getting down from bed. walking in peaceful pace. hahahaha. thats some of the example. and now sitting on a comfortable chair seems does not help to reduce the back pain. In the interval hour, i will get up and mingle around just to relax my back bone. instead of facing the computer nonstop, i will vary my activities. that is how i overcome my problem. 

This morning too, as i passed the university front gate, i managed to capture the lake view and others. So breathtaking actually bila pagi-pagi dapat tengok suasana macam ni.. :) its like orang kate mood pun boleh jadi tenang and okay smpai la habis kerja.. hahahha.

So thats all for this time. I have no idea to write more. See u guys in the next entry.. :)


Assalamualaikum..

Dah agak dah!

Assalamualaikum...

saja ambil masa untuk rehat ni dengan blogging sekejap. tengah kejang kaki so malas nak baca journals tuh. Heee.. actually mase pregnant ni selalu vb (vaginal bleeding). dah dekat 5 kali rasanya. so each time jadik hal tu jadi seram sangat each time rasa sakit kat bawah perut. punya la berhati-hati buat kerja. sikit pun xde nak lasak-lasak macam dulu.

few times before raya. and after raya sekali. dalam masa dua bulan. but the heaviest blood flow mase puasa. sangat tragic. that time happened around 5 a.m. after sahur, hubby terus hantar ke hospital walaupun at first neglect jugak nak pergi GH. mula-mula nak pergi je pantai hospital tapi fikir balik dua tiga kali, terus cancel. sebab once ckp vb mesti ade thorough check up and i hate it when diorang nak buat ape-ape test. i scared if moderate case become serious case. so sebab tu batalkan hasrat nak pergi ph. Gh pun jadi la. bile check, nasib la semuanya okay and baby pun okay. after two days, bleeding stop. lega sangat.

Fikir punya fikir, baru teringat yang a day before all bleeding, makan durian. masa paling banyak makan mase puasa. sebab i cannot fast, then apa je favorite terus nak makan. kebetulan dalam fridge memang ade stock durian. that time i remembered that i ate almost sebiji durian. memang banyak. -_____________-

masa raya pun makan durian lagi. yang lagi fresh makan lepas jatuh dr pokok terus makan. rumah makcik memang ada pokok durian, pokok buah-buah lain pun banyak. tukang kopek buah pun ramai. jadi tinggal makan. 

so now, bleeding dah tak ada. terus tak nak dah makan durian. pernah gak baca dekat blog orang lain yang dia gugur lepas makan durian. masa tu usia kandungan dia baru 2 bulan lebih. so sekarang ni kene careful la dengan apa yang di makan masa pregnant ni. plus hb sy pun rendah dah skrg ni. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

hopefully my baby will stays healthy in my belly. kicking all day long shows that he is so active and healthy. love you baby. mama and abah love you so much!!

the big family from Ismail's clan

i always love you hubby... :)

Life as it is

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Im so happy cause today is friday. hehehehe. My correction is almost to finish so i have few months left before i enroll the new semester. 

I just had this situation. few days back. I dont know how to express my feeling and how i have kept this feeling till now. Sometimes its okay to just accept whatever people tells you, your mistakes, your bad, whatever issue that makes you feel so down and low. I encountered this few times in my life. As for me, i am not someone that can stand up brave and talk about what she/he had done wrong. I can just give my advice without hurting his/her feeling. 

But this time, i think i had enough. Enough of this people who keeps telling me how i did not keep my promise, how i broke the rules, why i took this action and so on. You, you should listen first and think of all positive possibilities of why a person react the other way. why people said she/he wanna call you soon but ended calling you another week. Why people did this you-think-so-idiot-or-sinful behavior. Or other things that the people told you A and instead did plan B. So please, sometimes if i cannot call you very soon it must be i have something else that is important at the moment. But still, i called you. why don't you appreciate whatever good things i have done to you and stop  being so jerk. fine. i am out of my mind. i cant control my anger sometimes. Because i am so sad this happened to me.

I don't care if others give me advice, but please i am not expecting you to do the same wrongdoings i have done. You will make yourself look worst that i am. that's all. I am telling this so that in the near future i will remember that i should not do this to others. even how hurtful the situation is, i still have time to think or Him to listen. just pray and everything will be okay.

I sometimes talk rubbish

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Hope everyone enjoy the day. Yeah, its Friday where everyone is waiting for. Rasa sama je hari ni dengan hari lain. hahaha. mungkin sebab mood swing. Yesterday, we went to Ipoh. Alasan sebab nak guna voucher buku on certain books. Since now we can only redeem the voucher for books ONLY, (no stationaries, or note books, etc) so i decided nak pilih buku on pregnancy and other religion  books. It was disappointing when the books i looked for were not in the store. Hmmm just store yang besar but most are chinese books. okay i dont understand pinyin. -_____-

So we mingled around Ipoh Parade. xlama sebab so many people. it was Labor Day so everyone shopping la kot. sale was everywhere. after that, pergi makan. i was craving for makanan bersup and fikirkan tom yam was the right choice. tpi the best tom yam i had  is in Johnnys or Black Canyon. restaurant tu pun ade dekat Jusco Kinta. Malasnya la nak pergi mall lain dengan parking yang susah nak carik, Labor Day kan, confirm ramai. lepas kene Q pulak. okay cancel la plan pegi sana. Husband suggested that we go to Nasi Ayam Kampung je. Okay la walaupun masa dia cakap terus terbayang and rasa loya balik. sebab terfikirkan toilet dia yang smelly. Da*n it. Hahaha. xpela. pergi je sebab tak de gune toilet pun at the moment. Ordered my seafood tomyam. Okayla. walaupun x banyak die punye seafood asalkan tekak okay, i am fine with it. Husband of course western meal aje die tu. Lately i cannot tahan spaghetti which whenever i thought about it, tekak rasa mual and confirm rasa nak muntah. hahahhaa. please. Another thing, husband pun asik craving for fast food. sebelum ni kalau cakap nak makan sekali je. if tak dapat its okay. ini berhari-hari asik cakap nak kfc. okay pergila beli walaupun tak lalu jugak nak makan. in this case, what can i do is to swallow food in a small amount and dont think much of food i eat. hahahah kalau x confirm semuanya terbuang. huhuhuhu. anyway, this pregnancy term is really fun. walaupun yang tak cool adelah asik nak vomit. u can experience so many things yang tak pernah terfikir akan experience. the morning sickness, the nipple soreness, the what else?? hahahahhaa. yet to continue..

thats all. i rambling much now.

Hope you enjoy yr weekend. Im going to KL to attend a friend's wedding. Bye bye.

Assalamualaikum

Dah start dah

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Last week we were in Malacca, my hometown. Husband was sick due to kidney stone. This was the second time he had the symptoms after two years and we decided to go back on Thursday and have alternative medical check up in Malacca. i suggest if anybody yg rasa sakit yang sama, better go there sbb inshaAllah sesuai. 

This time, i am in my 6 weeks of pregnancy. Okay i should tell u that my sense of food has started to become extreme. I no longer can stand my fav food even the husband ate it, i could feel it sticking in my throat. Lol. Sometimes i have this pain in my tummy, which is the combination of cramps, bloating and ligament stretching, plus the nausea at the thought of food but at the same time feeling hungry is just confusing. i try to enjoy every moment but then i surrender. hahahaha. the best thing is i should not complain. there are some woman out there trying hard to conceive and i had this chance given by the Almighty, so i should not complain but feeling grateful to Him. i thought of having pregnancy diary but its hard to find. could anybody suggest?

so thats it for this entry. i have no more idea to write. 

:)

that night, i was here at 4.30 a.m. Luckily kak Haiza was awake and sent us to GH

the author

The dates

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Here are some of the photos of the recent trip to Cameron Highland with my close buddy. And this was a day before i knew that i.....

Am i expecting?

Assalamualaikum,

Hai, few days without any entry. guess what? im home for the past few days and never came to the office. i was so tired and last night susah sangat nak tido sbb dada rasa berat. Susah nak bernafas. phewww.. i need to inhale deeply. so smlm tido pun tak sedar pukul brape. plus last night i felt so cold.

two days ago, on Monday, i had urine test. i bought the upt test from shell before went to Cameron Highland. tengok harga murah, so i bought one without having intention to seriously have the pregnancy test. so on Monday morning, i woke up around 6.30 went to the toilet. i brought along the upt test kit and saje-saje nak test even my period suppose to be another two days. kira early two days i made the test. So, after test, i saw the C line appear very quick and i said okay.. no chance cause there is no T line appear. but then... after several seconds, ternampak mcm line yang kabur dekat T. so i said, ehhh ni pregnant ke???? i was shocked.

terus cepat pergi dkt my husband and showed him. mase tu die tengah tido lagi and i said, "eh betul ke ni,, cube check.." dia pun suruh on the light. he was surprised and confidently said i am positively pregnant. But its hard to believe till now cause the previous period, i thought i was conceived and had more than 5 times of pregnancy test but all failed. so this time, its hard to believe im expecting. I need to have a medical checkup first and since today is pasar malam day, and im going to the wet market, i will pick the upt test as well and perhaps try with the expensive upt test to make sure its positive. or else i will be in dilemma. hahahaha

i have so many Cameron Highland and Ulu Kenas photos to be posted but i guess i am so lazy to transfer here. the pregnancy syndrome perhaps??

hahahaha

wait till it is confirmed.

Panorama

Assalamualaikum,

Now, i think i have another camera syndrome. its a fact that i love to capture the environment especially when the sun rise. or perhaps when the weather is different from usual. or any  scene that i feel wonderful.

and now, i am so keen to capture using panorama mode. hahaha (orang lain dh lama pakai). i know. i realized the application but just i was away late from utilizing it.


:)

so here it is..